Sunday, October 9, 2011

I'm A Pumpkin!!!!!

 We made it to church and had such a wonderful reception of "welcome backs" for Joel. Very emotional day! And a good day. While at church one of the ladies handed me an envelope saying, "Here is something to make you smile." OH MY GOODNESS!!!! Make that a big ol' grin. She'd made the cutest little yo-yo pin with all kinds of BUTTONS sewn on it.  She attached it to a card . I'll have to copy, then you will understand the term, "I'm a Pumpkin". Too cute!!!  And what a perfect analogy.
For those that don't know, I am a button collector. I love buttons, have all kinds of buttons and all kinds of containers with buttons in them. Comes from my granny keeping me "busy" when I was little.  I love the pin not just because it has buttons, but because it's a reminder that someone thought of me. It is such a blessing knowing that someone was thinking about me in a special way. Thank you Mickey!
Her card read:
Happy Fall
From one pumpkin to another !!!!!
A woman was asked by a coworker,
"What is it like to be a Christian?"
The coworker replied, "It is like being a pumpkin.
God picks you from the patch, brings you in and
washes all the dirt off of you.
Then He cuts off the top and scoops out all the
yucky stuff.
He removes the seeds of doubt, hate, and greed.
Then He carves you a new smiling face and
and puts His light inside of you to shine for all the world to see."
 
I need to make something clear. I had used the term "Jeez" in one of my prior emails. That was NEVER meant to be a slang for anything other than 'GEE-WHIZ". I just typo-ed the "j' instead of using a "g".  When I speak of Jesus it is never in a negative, slang, or flippant manner. I do apologize for giving someone a jolt of "what was she thinking?".
 
I went by to see my brother and he was sound asleep and had been for about 3 1/2 hrs. He'd been awake most of the night and was miserable. About 6 this morning they changed his mattress and he was able to finally get comfy. It just took talking to the right person to get the ball rolling. The larger chair that Amanda had ordered for him was delivered but they are going to change it for something that will work better for his needs.  We hung around until he woke up.  He said that they are constantly asking him what they can do to make him more comfortable and if they can get him anything. It is so much easier to walk away and leave him in their care now. I did get the chance to thank Amanda, his nurse. I will be glad to see what progress he starts to make now that they will begin extensive therapy for him tomorrow. He is still on oxygen but didn't seem to be so confused once they got him sitting up.
 
I don't know if all y'all got rain, but we got about 1 1/2 in. It is wonderful!!!! I can't even complain about all the mud that is getting tracked inside. I've got a mop and a vacuum. It's such a blessing to already see the little green shoots sprouting up out of the mud.
 
Tomorrow will be a packed day of 'things to do'. We were veggies today. Both of us slept most of the afternoon. (me 4 1/2 hrs.)  I've had a little more of the virtigo today along with my ear hurting. I need to remember to take the Claritin which does help with all these TX allergies.
 
I already have 3 people that have joined my blog site. I am so excited. I still have lots to learn about it and how it works and what all I am suppose to do.  My daughter assures me that it's easy.
 
Please remember our friend, Chuck, in your prayers. He sees an oncologist this week.
 
Remember to encourage someone, especially a child.  
Till next time.
Love and Prayers to all!
Suzie

My Blog Spot

Subject: My blogspot

I received this Oct. 8, 2011 at 11:11 p.m and I've added my comment at the end of this post.
Another amazing "thing" that makes me feel like God is just smiling on all of this is because 11:11 p.m. is my very favorite time of the day. Whenever Joel or I see the 11:11 on a clock, we let each other know. It started yrs. ago when one of my very favorite cousins, Ginger, told us that she just loved the time 11:11. Ever since, we have always thought of her very fondly when we see it. Just saying.....I love the little "God Things".

--- On Sat, 10/8/11, Wendi Henry <wendi@henrylegacy.com> wrote:

From: Wendi Henry <wendi@henrylegacy.com>
Subject: blog
To: "Suzie Watts" <wattssuz@yahoo.com>
Date: Saturday, October 8, 2011, 11:11 PM

Mom,
I've been enjoying your updates so much.  The reason people are reading is because you do such a good job of expressing what you feel...in other words, writing well.  The last few, in particular, have been more vulnerable and expressive and, well, blog-like.  It seems this whole process has kick-started you into wriiting, so, I decided that since you are already "blogging", you need a blog...no worries about figuring out technicalities...it's simple...I made one for you...and I can tell you how to post with ease should you choose to continue writing.
 
I took the liberty of taking all your "posts" (updates) to this point and posting them with the date/time they were originally sent so that, even if you decide to not blog again, you will have a record of this journey and not forget the process or God's goodness through it all.  It's a monument to His faithfulness, not ours.  Anyway, I literally threw it together today while sitting by the fire, so if you want changes it's simple, but you can view it at http://sharedjoy.blogspot.com/ to see what's there so far.  I couldn't think of a name that wasn't already taken and then the idea of "joys shared and sorrows halved" hit me...which is what you are touching on so much.
 
I have many more pictures documenting things that I wanted to include but won't do so without your permission.  Your friends will have a place to see and read your story and those who may have a similar surgery will have a good timeline to think through regarding recovery. 

Many hugs and prayers--
Wendi
wife to Sam, and mama to our sprouts: Madeline (8), Lilly (6.5), Will (4.5), & Thomas (3)


Oct. 8, 2011 - 11:11 p.m.
I just received a msg. from my daughter that she has created a blogspot for me. I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!! A desire of my heart and one "answer to prayer" that wasn't ever actually prayed for. Just a desire of my heart, which I guess is a prayer. Our prayers don't have to be out loud, right?
Anyway, if any of y'all want to visit my blogspot, which will have my "stories" and pictures it is:
My daughter said that she kept thinking about the title and thought of "Shared Joys and Sorrows Halved". Isn't that the most perfect title for what we've been through? And I mean "WE". Y'all are the ones that have helped keep the sorrows down and my spirits lifted.
For those that know me and are getting to know me through this, I have always had a hard time excepting compliments and words of encouragement on doing things that I wanted to do, but didn't have the confidence to do them.  Three things that I am so thankful for, even though they came late in life, but happened because of encouragement are: 
1. My job that I retired from at Marion I.S.D. I was encouraged and mentored by two of the best co-workers anyone could ever ask for, Joyce Boenig and Kathy Dittrich. I loved my job because they made me believe that I could do it and they were always there for me.
2. My opportunity to sing with a ladies trio, (The 2 1/2 Angels). I'd tried out for choir in elem. school and didn't make it, so always thought that I couldn't sing. But because of one of my best friends, Diane Farley,  and my sweet husband, and friends, I'm singing and having a ball! 
3. Getting to write and express my feelings, encouraged by my sweet daughter, husband, and many of y'all that have been reading and enduring my emails.
Hopefully, this will be a blogsite that will help someone in some way.
Love and Prayers to all!
Suzie 

Saturday, October 8, 2011

I'm A Bear!


Wow!!! I've turned into a bear. I've been so disappointed with my brother's care and had a bit of a melt down, but got some things happening for the better. He really needs lots of prayers. He's got so many health problems and more cropping up. He is so miserable and depressed. But, I think that we are getting somewhere, now. I've been there twice today. Called the dr. that was on call and threatened to move him out if they couldn't get better equipment for a big guy and to check on the oxygen. His stats were at 80-83 (needs to be over 90, & preferably above 95) so now he is back on oxygen. He'd been asking since yesterday for it.  grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I had talked to three different people about my concerns and no one had passed the msg. to the right person. I did talk to the right person today and she was so sweet and helpful and got a big chair ordered and in place within just a few hrs.  Now I can sleep a little better tonight. I will thank her when I see her.
 
It broke my heart when I walked into his room to find him in too small of a chair just sitting trying to get in a position that didn't hurt. They were giving him his pain med., but that wasn't getting some of the real problems taken care of.  He can't see his t.v. because it's too small (he's legally blind), so he was just sitting there. I don't think I over-reacted just because I'm running on raw nerves. It really was pitiful.
 
Joel has had a good day. He rides with me whenever I need to run an errand. We met with some friends this afternoon and had a good visit. We wanted to go to one of our favorite oprys in Tilmon but felt it was too far too soon. He still poops out pretty quick. He is still having a little swelling in his feet, so needs to keep them elevated more.  I will be glad to have him seeing both heart drs. this Mon. to see if he's in the "normal" range.
 
God continues to bless us and bless us and bless us some more. We just look at each other with tears in our eyes and say, "GOD IS GOOD! ALL THE TIME!"  I just wish I knew what would be bigger and more sincere than just 'thank you', but that is all that I can keep saying from our hearts!
 
I'm thankful that the spraying I did, has been working. We've not had any more scurrying critters in the house, my leg is healing, haven't run into any more snakes, we're hearing from so many friends,  I've eaten jello without wearing it, the dog has stayed away from skunks, and it's rained.  We're good!!!
 
Our plans are to go to church tomorrow. yeaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!!!
 
Til' later.
Love and Prayers to all!
Suzie 

Friday, October 7, 2011

It's Friday!!!!

One day closer to getting back to normal. At least a normal that I understand. Joel has discovered that he is weak. He tried some "marching" steps back to the car when we went to visit Bill. He was pretty winded after that. Don't know why all the sudden he thought that he should practice a parade move. He said it was just to see if he could do it.

My brother was just sitting on the edge of his bed when we got there. He seems confused and very short on breath. He said that he'd asked for some oxygen, but the dr. didn't order it so now he's waiting. He won't start therapy until Mon. His t.v. is so small it's like watching a postage stamp and he can't see it, due to him being legally blind. I asked one of the nurses if there was a bigger t.v. that maybe he could see. She was going to check. I sure hope there is. He refused his lunch, too. He said that the bed was so uncomfortable. He just feels rotten and I think everything is just getting to him.  Hopefully, when they start the therapy and he starts getting his strength back, he will get back to his old self.

We were touched again by another gift in the mail from God. I have to give Him the glory, but it's y'all that He is using to work through. Thank you for everything each one of you have done and continue to do for us. We are humbled at all the blessings. This is so much more fun and such a relief from where we were less than 3 wks. ago. I am more of a "Doubting Thomas" when it comes to things. When the drs. told us that the area of Joel's blockage was called the widow maker, I immediately started thinking about being a widow and what I would do. I cried so much that I am surprised that I didn't become dehydrated. I didn't break down too much in front of Joel, I usually spent a long time in a nice hot bath and "got soap in my eye".  (wink, wink).

I read a wonderful devotional book, 'Jesus Calling' and it has been so amazing what I read each day. The day we came home, it mentioned "being in the comfort of your home". And the past few days it's reminded me of trust and to be still and know that God is in control. If I were to ever get a tatoo, it would read, "Remember, Suzie, it's God who is in control!".

(I won't be getting one , but please take it upon yourself to send me that message every few mins. or remind me when you see me.)

We are going to a birthday party later this afternoon. It will be so nice to get out and be among people. Our dog has grown to enjoy the conversations and attention that we have been giving her. But a one way conversation does get old and boring after awhile.

I will finish this post when we return.

Okay....we're back. We went to the party and got to see lots of friends. It was so good to get out and relax. And we were blessed with another gift, actually  twice. Not only did someone buy our yummy dinner, which we have enough left over for lunch tomorrow, but a friend gave us a love offering and that is exactly what you have to call it. He offered it to us with much love and told us so. Made us cry, again.

What am I learning from all of this????????? That I should always be willing to be used of God, to be His hands and feet. To be careful to not just say a prayer or a "God Bless You", but to actually step forward and do what I can when I can. People can't eat prayers or God bless yous nor pay their bills with them. Don't get me wrong. Prayers are essential and we can't survive without them, at least sanely. And I am so glad that I do have friends that I call "Prayer Warriors" that I can contact and know that they are going to pray, pray, pray. I'm just saying that there have been times when I could have done something and didn't. Now I am seeing the results of our prayers by God using others. We are paying our bills & eating well because of God's whispers to the hearts of others who are willing to act. I have wrestled with helping others at times, making excuses not to. I am understanding more and more that it's not up to me. If I ever feel so compelled to do something for someone, friend or stranger, then I should really trust that it is God whispering to my heart and I should be willing to trust Him. This is not just monetary, but all kinds of help. We've had offers to mow our lawn, clean my house, run errands, babysit Joel, take him to the dr., walk our dog, cook meals, pick up meds, bring meals, or whatever we would call for. Amazing, Amazing, Amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Joel got a little tired being out, but did well. We both ate salad with grilled chicken and had water. Had dressing on the side, so didn't drowned our salad. No crackers, bread, or croutons. yeaaaaa !!!!!  (This is a BIG deal with me..... I LOVE CROUTONS, but not enough to ever have to go through what Joel's just gone through.) So....croutons, be gone!!!

Thank you for "listening".

Love and Prayers!

Suzie

Thursday, October 6, 2011

A Good Day!

Hello people!

We have had a much better day. Just a small "owie" on my shin. I was in a war with the critter explosion we've been experiencing around here and wasn't paying attention and ran into a brick wall that I had not planned on stepping over but ended up going over it. I just hope that my neighbors weren't watching. The shin is hurt, but my pride is really bruised!  I figure this is much better than a snake bite or scorpion sting. Never have had either and don't plan to. I got distracted while spraying around the house. I sprayed and sprayed and sprayed. I am so paranoid, now that I am stomping on anything that isn't suppose to be on the floor. (It's the bifocals). And I'm slapping little twinges I feel or think I feel, just knowing that I have a huge scorpion with snake fangs crawling on me. jeez !!! But I'd rather be safe than sorry, so I'll just keep stomping and slapping!!!

My brother is now in Seguin at Guadalupe Valley Nursing and Rehab. He will be there at least 2 weeks. He was transported today by ambulance. His tests from yesterday came back okay. He sounds like he is really laboring for each breath.  My sister had to leave today to check with her dr. She has polymyalgia (?sp) and it is starting to flare up. She is planning on coming back when Bill is back home. She has always come to our rescue when we needed help.

She also helps others with dog sitting, but WARNING!!! Your dog will never be the same. She spoils them rotten and then when she's around they totally ignore their masters.

Home healthcare nurse came today to check Joel. He got an "A".  Lungs sounded clear. All vitals & incision were good. The one thing that is bothering him is the blood pressure dropping when he first gets up. But the nurse told him to hang on to something when he first stands. He sees the dr. Mon. so he may be in for a med. change that may help. 

We've not gotten an update on Brayden. Hoping no news is good news.

We got a call about our friend, Chuck. His surgery for the melanoma was changed to yesterday and it was in one of the two lymph nodes. He will find out next week what the plan is. Please keep him in prayer.

I sure do appreciate all the responses to my updates, rants, comments, "news", etc. All comes for extreme boredom. But I do enjoy it. Just can't believe some of the stuff that I've said. How boring for y'all!

Love and Prayers to all!

Suzie

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Unbelievable Update

My day started out wonderful! I got up on time, got ready for work, fixed Joel's breakfast and lunch and headed out the door. It was wonderful to get out of the house and I got to work with a teacher that loves to help kids. I didn't even mind lunch room duty. Just seeing all the kids was wonderful.

Joel made it through the day just fine. He said that he did get lonely. (No one to talk to.)

Now that's funny, if you know Joel very well. HE DOESN'T TALK MUCH AT ALL!!!!!

I told him that he had our dog here to talk to but he said that she'd slept all day. (We are at the age that our dog is our "baby".)

We got a surprise in the mail that made both of us cry. God is SO good. We really are blown away by all of the love that is being shown to us. Joel has always been so good at helping others and having a big heart, but has a hard time accepting it. He's never done things to get things back. Thank you for loving us!

My brother is still in the hospital. They were running some tests thinking that he may have fluid building up around the heart. He's just not coming along now like he seemed to have been at first.  He's showing more anger, removed his monitors and arm bands.

He has been getting cards. THANK YOU THANK YOU

While I've gotten so many people praying, please add one of our good friends to your prayer lists. His name is Chuck and he will be having surgery this coming Fri. on his arm for a Melanoma cancer.

Now......as you noticed, I started this off with saying that my day STARTED out wonderful. It's not over yet, but it sure has turned into one of my "Lucy" days.  REALLY.... no one can make this up! And for those that really know me....they can believe it. ONLY Me.....would this all happen to in a matter of a few hours.

I went walking with my sister and sister-in-law and just slipped on a pair of flip-flops, take the dog on her leash, and walk until it starts getting dark. I start up the drive and I stop to take the leash off, which I did and then she jumps which gets my attention, and THERE'S A SNAKE!!!!  Scared the bejeebers out of me! I could not believe it. Really???? A scorpion last night & snake tonight????? And me in flip-flop shoes.

I wasn't impressed at all, but tried to take a deep breath, remembering that God had just showed me a couple of hours prior how He takes care of us. Still gave me the creeps and made me question.....WHY?????????????????????? I really HATE! HATE! HATE! HATE! snakes.  And scorpions are right up there with that STRONG feeling. chills!!!

Sad to say, the story doesn't end there.  After the snake is no more, my son finds another scorpion on a rock. I take another deep breath and am thankful the darn thing is outside this time.

Now the story can't stop there. NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! About 20 mins. after all the hoopla outside, Joel kills another scorpion crawling across the living room floor. OH MY GOSH!!!!  I've now taken so many deep breaths that I'm dizzy.  Obviously, none of us are walking around barefooted. 

Keep reading, it's still not over.....About 15 mins after the last scorpion encounter, our son opens the back door and announces that our dog has a problem......she'd found a skunk! She didn't get a direct "hit" (this time) , but enough that I had to stop everything, mix up a formula to bathe her in. Then clean up that mess. Fortunately, I had everything on hand since she'd gotten sprayed twice a couple of yrs. ago. You'd think she'd learn!

I REALLY hate scorpions and snakes sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! I can't think of one good thought about either.  I just get the creeps. No one got bit or stung, & for that I am thankful. That is the only thing I can say positive.

Now I'm trying to figure out how to sleep tonight. I just killed a spider scurrying across the floor. Maybe I am asleep and this is all a dream. ha! I wished!!!!

We will be spraying and spraying and spraying tomorrow. I'd get a few dozen cats to keep away the snakes, but my dog keeps away the cats. so..... I wonder if living in a high rise apt. would be snake, scorpion and skunk free? Sounds like it would be worth a try.

Thanks again for letting me use all y'all as my therapist. I appreciate all the comments and encouragement. Please keep Joel, Bill, and Chuck lifted in prayer.

Love and Prayers to all!

Suzie

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Updates

Joel is 2 wks. out from his surgery and my brother is 1 wk. We've been waiting all day for my brother to be transported to a rehabilitation center here in Seguin. (The hurry up and wait game). Joel was seen by the home health care nurse and is doing good. He has a little bit of fluid in the lower left lung, so is working on some extra exercises which will also get the oxygen levels up. They were around 93. I catch myself taking in the deep breaths and holding them when he is doing it. I don't think that this really helps him, but hey.....I'll try anything to get things moving.

I was right about the day being good! We had a nice surprise lunch with Mary Ann Norris and Jerry. Both have gone through the same surgery as Joel's and were so encouraging about his progress and what to expect. They were very clear on having to follow the docs. orders, too.  So glad that we ran into them while out getting more meds!  I feel like we are running a small pharmacy. But it really is a huge blessing that we are able to go get them when needed.

We received a package from our daughter that was full of different salt-free spices from a spice company called Penzeys. They have the BEST spices ever. Worth looking up on line!

My favorite is the Vietnamese Cinnamon. The best ever!!!!!! I didn't know there were so many spices in the world until we visited one of their stores.  Can't wait to use what she sent.  I've always been a salt & pepper cooker and when I felt brave, I'd grab the garlic powder.  All my kids are wonderful cooks and use all kinds of spices. Makes things that I don't like, likeable.

Brayden is now out of the hospital and got the drain tube out. They left the hole open to heal....ouch!!! I can't imagine trying to keep a 7 month old from messing with it.

My brother called me at 8:30 this morning and sounded so good. He said the transfusion made him feel so much better. He is still waiting on being transferred to a rehab. unit in Seguin. They were waiting on insurance stuff.........grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I will update on where he will be. Carol (my sister) said that he was showing anger/depression today. We will try to visit him as much as possible but not to interfere with his rehab. He really needs to work on that.

Now the kicker for the day, actually tomorrow............. I am going to go sub. yipeeeeeeee!

I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited  I've checked and double checked with Joel about how he feels, etc. He doesn't go upstairs, yet, so that won't be a worry. The school is 3 mi. from the house. I will have his lunch ready, fix him a breakfast before I leave, and zoom home as soon as school is out.  He said that it would be fine.  I will have my cell phone on me the whole time.  I can't believe that I am this excited about having to get up so early in the morning, but I am.

I will update again tomorrow.

Love and Prayers to all!

Suzie

p.s. I do have a "whine" for the day.....we just killed a scorpion in the bedroom. THOSE CREEPY THINGS ARE SO NOT ON MY LIKE ONE LITTLE BIT LIST!!!!!! YUK YUK YUK